FUN

Being a worship leader has its disadvantages...

I went through and removed the tags on my Jasmine pictures.

I thought about keeping one...then I just saved it to my external.

Tonight's "Pursue" night was AWESOME. Worship rocked. I always seem to get more blessed when I'm playing drums. I think it's because I can be so free with them. They hide me...I get to move around and no one thinks I'm crazy. It's freeing. And so much fun.

Tonight we all hung out afterwards and I can say that I am really starting to feel like I'm a part of the church family. I love getting involved with the youth. They're so passionate and just...cool. And I got to talk with the youth pastors afterwards and some of the young adults that attended. We just laughed and talked for almost an hour. Fun.

Basically I'm just having fun.

I spent almost 5 hours at the DMV today. I went there once, found out they don't take Visa, drove 45 minutes back home, came back and finally got my license, tags, and plates.

I was reading a book when this cute little boy came in. He stepped in, stopped, took a look around at everyone, and just stood there observing for a minute or so. Then he came and sat right in front of me with his mother. He turned around in his chair and just stared at me...for close to a minute. Finally he waved at me. I waved back. Then he stared at me for another minute. Finally he inquired, "Do you talk?" I shook my head no.

Then he got scolded by his mother.

"But why doesn't he talk?"

Fun.

God gives us days like this to reflect on when the trials come.

Thank you.

I hate it when people tell you to smile. Don't tell people how to feel. If they feel happy, they'll smile. You should be allowed to look neutral if you wish. You don't have to fake a smile if you don't want to. Let us be ourselves!

Why does it seem like the hardest thing to do is always the right thing to do?

This is completely unrelated to my first thought. Turns out there might be a change of plans. I don't think I'm going to get my masters in music composition.

1. It's 45k a year
2. Teaching jobs rarely come open, and I just can't justify spending that kind of money on a job that really won't pay itself back. That's just too much debt.

Soooo...I've been looking into SIUE's MBA program. Which means I no longer need the GRE prep book I bought, but instead I'll need a GMAT prep book and a ton more math knowledge. I did some practice problems with my buddy tonight.

We got 50% of them right.

They have a one-year program that I could start in the summer. Logic tells me this is a good life decision. I've never really been good at math, but as my higher level thinking skills have developed in college, I have noticed that I am becoming more adept at logic-based problems. But there's a whole lot of logic involved, and not a whole lot of praying. Which leads me to option #2...

Theology. This has always interested me. Once again, not really the best career move, hence the prayer. But this is something that I can do from home and it's relatively cheap schooling. A BUTT-LOAD of writing though, which is something I hate. But writing is becoming increasingly easier for me, and when it's a subject that I care about, it always makes it easier.

I'm really unsure though. No matter what, I do need to enter some type of graduate program. I've seen what life is like when people are struggling to find a job. With the degree I received from Evangel, I'm really not ensured job security. But God has taken care of me this far. There's a line from a Michael Buble song that states, "I live my life in stages". Whether I'm taking this out of context or not, I don't care. I know that this is what God wants for me in this stage of my life and I am going to give it my best until it's over...and then I find out what God has for me next. I don't want to spend my time constantly thinking about the future when I should be concentrating on the "here and now". If I did that, I'd be robbing the present of my full attention, and not putting forth all my effort into my current job, friends, and family.

I'm merely thinking about my future when it allows, not dwelling on it. There's a big difference between preparing for your future and fretting over it. One is healthy, the other is not. The Bible says to let tomorrow worry about itself. Great advice.

Perspective

It's always a wake up call when you think something is good, and then you see a professional do it. Perspective.

I hate testosterone and the male need to "one-up".